Yet, another holiday approaching

I have been trying not to think about Mother's Day. Sad because I am a Mom myself and should be able to enjoy this day.

We have so many people to see on holidays, it's ridiculous. I've always told myself that once I have kids, going every which way would stop. But here we are 2 years later and we are still having to split our time. I don't know how people do it, not only that but how they are fine with it! I guess I'm selfish. I don't care though. I want to one day spend this day AT HOME with just Jimmy & Giana (and whatever other kids I may have). But nooooooooo, we have our moms to see. Which is completely understandable - afterall, they are OUR moms and would not be here w/o them so they deserve to get honored too. It's just hard for me to deal with.

Now that I'm a mom, I feel I deserve a day for me. Maybe it doesn't have to be on that actual day - maybe that Sat? I don't know. But what I do know is that once my kids are old enough to bring me cards and breakfast in bed, the day is ours, and others will have to wait.

James says he's planning something for me that morning...such a great hubby! But I can't help but think that it will feel rushed b/c we have to go to his mothers, then see my mother...bleh. Maybe I'm reading too much into it and should appreciate things a little more. Any opinions? I can take it really ;)

So, should I put aside my feelings of selfishness right now since my daughter is still young and wait till my kids are older and then tell people how it will be that I will set my OWN traditions with my family? I need to pray that God gives me the strength to bite my tongue and tell everyone to leave us the hell alone haha! I understand that James needs to see his Mom and Grandma too on that day. Hey, at least he knows that I come first. For him to at least think of planning something for me, is the best gift I can ask for. Afterall, I did give him the most beautiful babygirl in the world...

Here is Giana and I on my very first Mother's Day, 2008. How little was she?!



Last year, James & Giana gave me some gifts that were so sweet. El Cantante, the movie with JLO and Marc Anthony, the MC CD, and some homemade coupons for a haircut and hair dye. How sweet was that? Hella thoughtful, I must say. Then he made me breakfast, which he does every once in a while ;) Here are the gifts...




So we'll see what's in store on May 10th - which is also my parents 29th wedding anniversary!
So much to do, so little time...
Besitos - Lissa.

Hmmm....

I'm not sure what to write about today. I'm tired from this week. Giana's just getting over her sinus infection but I still have to give her Omoxacilin for a few more days though or until she finishes the bottle.

Lately, she's been testy. She is approaching the terrible 2's (turns 2 on Sept 15th) but her attitude is unbelievable. She has this look that she gives when she's irked - kinda funny, kinda not. I tell her that I'll slap it off if she don't stop. Haha! My cousin & aunt told me that I'm a strict mom already but I gotta be or else she's gonna think she act up whenever she wants. I refuse to be one of those moms that let's their kid "express themselves". Bull! Yes, my kids can be independent BUT respect adults. My mama raised me to respect other people's property and don't touch stuff in their houses! Drives me nuts when parents let that happen in other people's houses. Best believe I am slapping her hand if she continues to touch after I say no.

I think it's great that Giana is going to be her own person one day, but as long as she is under 18...she's alllllllllllllllll mine! Like my mother always said, "I brought you into this world & I can easily take you out." Now, literally you can't take them out of this world and like push them back in lol but you can take stuff away from them. For example, if my kid messes up in school...I will threaten them that I will go down to their school & embarrass them in front of their friends! Cruel you say? Hell yeah! But best believe they won't mess up anymore!! Haha, I was always scared that my mom would come down to the school lookin' all tore up yelling Melissa!!!!! Those of you who are laughing probably are imagining my mother doing that b/c you know her, lol!

Anyways, I love my Giana and she will be a good girl but just gotta make sure she has attitude for the right reasons. I guess when I don't know what to write about, I focus on my kid. Best thing in my world!

This time of year

This time of year bring great memories. James and I started dating 8 years ago. Let's reminisce on our first date in 2001, shall we....

We had seen each other a few times prior to dating. I went to his 19th birthday at his best friend, Tom's house in SSF with a few friends. You know house parties...well Tom's house was a big party house back then lol. So much fun. James was pretty drunk that night but having fun with everyone there. So, that was my first real encounter with him I guess you can say.

About a month later, we start hanging out more at school due to mutual friends up at CSM. He was on the football team, which explained his nice body lol :o)...and I was just your average chick hanging out with her friends during breaks from classes. He liked me for a while so we started talking on the phone and hung out more. He finally asked me to a Giants game on a Sunday which is the day my family goes to church. I had to beg my dad to let me miss church but he gave in and I was sooooo happy & nervous. It was like my first REAL date with a guy.

So I got all dolled up, in overalls...wth was I thinking wearing overalls? LOL oh well he thought it was cute. He picked me up in a cute Nissan Pathfinder, only to find out later that it was his Mom's car and he took it cuz he didnt wanna drive his broke van which was called the Local Motion by his boys haha! Anyway, we got to the game, the Giants were playing the Brewers that day. It was such a nice day too. We sat in the bleachers. Before we left, he bought me a JT Snow beanie baby. The cutest thing EVER! I still have it, even though the head of the bear is almost ripped off. I love that thing! He knew I had a crush on JT back then so I thought it was cute that he bought it for me :)

After the game, we said bye...no kiss yet. Later that night, I was going to dinner with some friends at La Cucina (restaurant in Bridgepointe but it's not there anymore) for a going away thing. I decided to call James and invite him along. He came! YAY!

Well, that was our first date. More to come when I blog about our anniversary on 4/28 :)

Besos,
Lissa

Lonely

I kinda wish that my sisters were around my age. Don't get me wrong...I love the fact that they look up to me and I can be the cool older sis. But literally, I will be in my 40's by the time they have kids - so I'll be the old Auntie. lol

Now that I'm starting to have kids, I don't see her having anyone to grow up with. I myself grew up as an only child until Cel & Gaby came along 17 & 19 years later, just as I was leaving my parent's nest. I had my cousins that I grew up with in my Grandma's house and I consider them like my bros and sis's. But its' not the same b/c they have each other to lean on now that we're older and I feel kinda lonely, in a way. I have a great friend, Tanya, whom I love to pieces. She is ALWAYS there for me, been there thru my trials since we became bff's 8 yrs ago. She has 2 sisters of her own who are there for her too no matter what.

I guess what I'm saying is that I have been missing that piece of my life where that one other person is there for you forever and ever. Don't get me wrong - I know my cousins & friends are there for me if I really needed them to talk to or lean on. But the feeling's not the same. I dont know...I may be sounding needy but that's not at all how I'm trying to feel or look like. I have my wonderful husband who is my ultimate Best Friend though and he is always there for me 100%.

Playdates...I'm not sure how to go about that. I feel bad for Giana b/c when we take her out, I wish there was other kids that can come with her. I know I know - she doesn't even know or care b/c she has me and daddy whom she loves to death and haves so much fun with. I guess this gives me more reason to have more kids so she can have sisters and/or brothers to have around 24/7 to play with. I want her to have that commrodery of siblings to grow up with and be close too.

I want her to have all the things I didn't growing up and this is one...

Baby #2

So we have been thinking of Baby#2 for a while now. Ever since Giana turned 1 last September. I guess we wanted to enjoy our time with the first baby as much as we can before we start our tribe of kids.

I am a stickler for not having a baby in December - hell no! No baby around the holidays!!!!! You may think that why not on the holidays? Well let me tell you...December is the busiest time of year for James and I. There are 3, yes 3 birthdays around Christmas - his mom's, dad's, and stepdad's!!! So therefore, no baby of mine is going to get lost in the shuffle there. Why am I talking about this right now? I have to stay clear of getting pregnant this month b/c according to my ovulation time and due date calendar, if I were to get preggers this month, the baby would be due on Dec 31st! Yikes! Off limits until next month.

I actually want a Winter/Spring baby =) Numero dos would be due Jan 31st if we were to get preggers in May. I am happy with that b/c if we don't get preg then, we still have allll summer to get preg for a baby to be due in Spring time! Love it.

Another upside to this was Giana was born in September which meant that I was pregnant all summer. Yes people being pregnant in the last trimester being Summer is a draaaaaaaaaaaag. I was miserable as hell, could not get comfortable in anything I wore - only wore dresses and lava lavas (for those of you who don't know, a lava lava is a Samoan material that you tie around as a skirt). Jeans - say bye bye to those in the summer when pregnant. Plus my feet swelled up to freakin' watermelons LOL. So, now I look forward to being in my last trimester in the Winter where I don't have to feel bad wearing sweats and my husband's tshirts.

Wish us luck as we start our journey in beginning the next chapter titled, Baby #2. Hoping for a boy this time around, but if we get another girl...best of luck to James! Haha, j/k. I'd love to have 2 girls too =) Whatever God wants us to have is fine with us!

Ttyl! Besitos.

Just the beginning

I'm starting this blog thing so our family & friends can keep up with our lives. I think this is a real neat idea!

Let's see...our lives are good & busy right now. Giana is a thriving 19 month old little girl. No longer a baby that's for sure. She says many words, sentences. Her favorite thing to do is walk around the house in Mommy's shoes. I can't wait to see how she is in her teens - wait, yes I can. LOL

James is working his butt off at his job at Aramark. He's under a lot of pressure everyday but he pulls it off real good. It was hard in the beginning b/c we'd fight a lot due to his stress at work. I try to understand where he's coming from but it's hard. Men & women are different in those aspects of life. But he's trying his best to move up so I have to give him mucho credit for that! Most men don't wanna do better for themselves or their families. Could be laziness, selfishness, whatever the case. But James is not like that. He wants better for our fam.

Well, that's it for now. Gotta get back to work before I leave!

Talk to ya'll soon.